What were your fantasies when you reached puberty?

I was born in 75 so when I hit puberty most women smoked cigarettes. I loved older women I would fantasize about my friends moms or my moms friends but most of all my dad's girlfriend. When laying around the house I would watch her smoke and it drove me absolutely nuts . I guess it's an oral fixation or somthing but to this day if I had 3 wishes one would be to finally look down and see her lips wrapped around my nice hard cock and to cum all in her mouth and her lips . I know it's perverted but when I was young watching her I would get so hard my cock would throb and I'd have to go to the bathroom and jerk off thinking of her sexy ass. Now I'm 50 and she is 60, my dad passed away and she is married so I'd never cross a line but if her husband passes first or they divorce I will tell her. I'm pretty sure she already knows and she's probably flattered . When I was about 22 I got drunk with her older sister who was sexy as well . I told her how I longed for them both and how it would be adream come true to sleep with either one… well I did get to put my hard cock in the sister's mouth and shot a huge hot load all over her mouth and tits, we fucked 3 or 4 times and it was amazing!!! We never told anyone else . Another time I was drunk and told my step sisters mom how I jerked off to her my whole life and ended up on her living room floor that night eating her sweet pussy and got one of the best blowjobs of my life . She sucked the soul out of me and played with my cum on her face and mouth it was so hot. That one turned strange though as she thought we were gonna have a live affair and be together. Now I still fantasize about my step mother before I die I don't care how old we get I'm going to fuck this woman with everything I have , every kink every inch every bit of cum I have is all hers I want her so , so bad . We talked on Facebook last week and I told her I had a dream about her she responded sometimes dreams are good. You tell me ,that sounds like she wants to give me the puss right ? I could never make the first move on her but if I were to ever get anything what so ever that looks like a green light I'm going in life is short and if you have a desire and can fulfill it , whynot? Even at 60 she is so fucking hot to me I mean I literally cum my pants around her I can't help myself. I must have jerked off to her millions of times I would give up my life for a good and proper blowjob from her . I'm sure her sister told her about our thing and the shit i said and did lol it was like a interview my mouth stayed pleasing and my tongue went all the way in her butt I did eve=y nasty horny thing I could with her and she loved every minute of it . I'm sure she was flattered as well I was 15 years younger and I'm a decent looking man I've had plenty of 10s around them both with me and me wanting her instead probably stroked her ego. Her pussy was 1st rate and her sisters will be my crowning achievement in life. If she ever reads this I want her to know she has made me hard for 40 plus years and she has been my crush my whole life I would take my time and please her in every way possible . I'd probably fall in love . I bet she is still tight and gives the greatest head possible. I want you b—v